September 30, 2007
That feeling doesn't go away. There is always one of us missing. I always feel one short. It is hard to shake that feeling that I have left someone behind--forgot one. The feeling is actually worse if I only have some of the kids as it adds to that feeling. I know I am short someone else and it never feels right. I have to remind myself where they are and what they are doing; Knox is always missed. It is hard to imagine that ever going away as long as the kids are home; I have to wonder if it will fade when we are empty nesters only to come back when we are all gathered together again. It is a sad feeling, but yet, I wouldn't want it any other way. As long as he is missed, he seems to still be with us.